Wicca

I'm pagan, but I identify most with Wicca, I hope to be able to be certain of that once I'm out of my mom and dad's house. I've been studying off and on for about a year now. I"m scared to get attached because I'm not sure what will happen once I do. I grew up as a Christian which seems like what most people coming into this path where before they came. I found Wicca when I was doing a project on Witches, I wasn't serious about it then,  I was even scared of it, but I decided to look into it later on down the road and I really just fell in love, I mean it made more sense than what I've been told since I was little. It made more sense than what I read in the Bible also. So I just decide it was right for me, but I'm still not ready to fully study it. I'm 17 and I have school and a family who thinks I'm still Christian. I will though once I'm out of the house. So I can perform rituals the correct way, and maybe if I'm lucky find a coven that really interest me. For now I'm using this Blog as a tool to write down new things I learn but I can't practice fully. I do rituals sometimes but I can't fully enjoy or do them because I'm in a house where if someone wakes up to find me chanting in front of candles they'll question my sanity. *giggles* I'm also already weird so it wouldn't bother me, they've caught me painting my face up in strange designs and dancing alone in front of a mirror, so it's no the worst. But I'm afraid of what they would think if I said all this time I wasn't a Christian, and I've been lying to them. I couldn't handle that disappointment. 
 So far though I've been studying nature, and the natural ferocity of the world, because that is what interest me. I believe we belong in the natural world, not surrounded by all the things we have now. Sometimes I feel like a slave to the computer and technology that has become our god. It has also brought me to Wicca though and other pagan religions which I am deeply grateful for. I read allot of articles on Witchvox and I also signed up for this E-course by  Patti Wigington  on about.com. These are really good resources. I also wanted to start classes on Fire Fly Academy but I found I just didn't have the time for them yet and on top of that I felt guilty not being the legal age. That is my journey so far, I hope to be able to post more later on, but I'm doing several RP sites and Blogs on different sites, email me or follow me if your interested.