Update 11/12/11

I've been super busy with school, everything has been wonderful in Georgia, school is going great! I've been hanging out with my friends, having fun, going places, and just enjoying life. Recently I've spent a lot of time at my friends Bonnie Jones's house, Bonnie, Kayla, Ashton and I just hang out and do crazy things like making funny videos for youtube (most recent one is http://www.youtube.com/user/LabrunumANDQAnneLace#p/u/5/1vafW7Sdm3A ) We look so goofy! I have so much fun with them, they are a great bunch of people that just know how to keep me laughing. :) My mom just turned 40 years old this November 10th, we had a nice little party with just Brooke, Hawthorne, Dad, Mom and me, we ate cake and watched TV together. She got an MP3 player and I helped her download some music. We get out for Thanksgiving Break on the 18th and we don't go back till the 28th, which is awesome I really need a good long break off of school. Then another month and this semester will be over! Can't wait till next semester, I will be able to sign up for Japanese for my semester year. That will be awesome! Right now I'm taking German, I love it but I still want Japanese, who knows though, maybe I'll end up going to Japan and Germany! I don't play WOW that often anymore, been out of it, I have moments of extreme WOW playing and moments of super lows. I don't know if not playing is a good thing, I miss being so close to my dad, and having a common thing we both like. We'll find something else though that we both like. I did find this new artist named Kanon Wakeshima, she does this kind of classical sound, but with a poetic/dark touch to her music. I just love it! I've also found this site called www.textfugu.com which is a great resource for Japanese lessons, if anyone is interested and along with with that a Japanese dictionary http://jisho.org/ . TThere is also this great site for flashcards called http://www.memrise.com/welcome/ which you can use for more languages other than just Japanese. If you have any questions about where I got these please contact me at wickedpain2421@gmail.com
Have a nice day :):):)

It's been awhile...

Guten Tag! (that's good day in German)
It's been a loooooong time since I've posted anything on here >.<. School has been busy, I've hardly had time to practice Wicca, and keep up with school. I'm going to try and post more stuff on here, but it will probably mostly be on Japanese, and how I'm what I learn each week. I'm also taking German! It's so much fun! Ever since I found out that my ancestors came from Austria and Germany I've been all over trying to find out allot about the culture, the language and some of it's history! So far I've learned greetings, how to order something, how to buy stuff at a store, colors, numbers and some other really cool stuff. I'm going to take all three level of classes that are available to me.  I'm also going to be taking Japanese (hopefully) on virtual school course. I am supposed to have a 95 average in all my classes, but maybe there will be an exception? I have an 88, (that's ONLY because I missed allot of days for medical reasons), so maybe he'll make an exception. I've wanted to go to Japan since I was 9, ever since I learned a little bit about Japan I've been opsessed with finding all I can about Japan and it culture. I love looking up videos about people going to visit there are those who live there, it's just seems like the place to be! Well anyways, I should probably talk about some other things that's going on in my life right now... My now ex-boyfriend left me in August. It was a tough time because really made me feel like I wanted to work hard, but he left, and he also broke up with me. Now that we are over though life is much better. I used to stay home and not go out with friends because I would want to be with him, or be talking to him, but now..  now I hang out with my friends and I ENJOY life so much more better! I went to my first Pagan Pride Festival in September ( he would have had a fit if we had been together), it was so amazing to be around like minded people and to see what they all offered.
I  just turned 18 on September 21, that was exciting. and life just keeps getting better from there. :) I hope to update some more later! I'm re-starting my cat blog/RP blog if you want to check it out it's herehttp://warriorcatsthornkit.blogspot.com/
Thanks everyone!

Soooo....

I've been watching videos by Tiptoechick (awesome youtuber so far!) and she has really just made me think about where I'm going with paganism, wicca, and my path in general. To be really honest I don't know. I feel insecure about my ability to meditate correctly or learn the information that I've been finding all over the web, or even if I truelly understand the threefold law that I try to adopt as a moral compass of sorts. Right now I'm just confused, all the books I have they go into spell work, and they talk about all these spells and tools, divination and different things, correspondences with days, candles, just things I can barely wrap my mind around. It all feels like a blur flying past me without me really understanding what it's trying to say. Yet the feeling I get when I walk outside, and I feel my bare feet touch the grass and dirt, and I smell clean air, I know these things are what I want. I'm just not sure if I am ready, I want a teacher. I want someone to take me into the forest and show me things that my hectic eyes miss, I want someone to stand under a night sky and tell me stories about the stars, or a group to build a fire with and chant around in a circle so that we all feel connected to the mother earth. I'm just so confused about my path, but I'm glad that I found Tiptoechick, to make me question MYself, make me think deeply about my connection to the Goddess and admit the things that I feel that I fail at. I can't do spell work, I'm not that great at ritual I sort of just do what I feel at the time but I do follow a certain order and I feel relaxed afterwards, I'm terrible at remembering the difference between and Esbat and a Sabbat, a waxing and a waning moon (I'm getting better at that though) or widdershin or doesil, I'm lost on whether or not I'm supposed to memorize the Sabbats and the different names for the moons. I do know I have faith in the Goddesses deep within my heart, waiting for me to find them, to be able to worship the ones that call to me is what I want, it's what will define my path. I"m not sure where this is going, but I just wanted to write what I felt as I was watching her video, and what I felt I needed to fix in my life (which is exorcising,studying the earth, Goddesses, and Wicca, and volunteer at a vet offices because I think I want to be a vet when I graduate high school) I just feel great now though, being able to admit my fears, even though nobody probably reads this. I'm ready to begin to look inside myself now, I hope to post more soon about this new journey I'm going on.

A lot of Hate

A lot of the things I learn about Wicca, I read on the internet and it is hard for me to know if everything I read is correct or right. One thing I do know, is it upsets me whenever I go on any religious forum or what not, there is just so much hate. I know allot of it is just trolls but I don't understand why people are so hateful constantly. Even the smallest of articles has a uproar of hate, and hardly any good comments because people have to get up and defend the article instead of just enjoying it and encouraging the author. Even posting things on forums on different sites as caused allot of hateful comments, when I specifically asked for people who where Wicca or pagan in general. The first comments were hate, and the comments that followed were comments defending Wicca. I know I could just ignore those comments all together, but I like to go and read comments after a good article and just enjoy listening to people who actually liked it, not trolls on the web who haven nothing better to do then to look up Wiccan or Pagan articles and post hate remarks. Well that is my tid-bit for today. ^.^

Rosemary Ellen Guiley- Author Of Encyclopedia of Witches, Witchcraft, and Wicca!

Rosemary Ellen Guiley | Paranormal Research | Ghosts & Hauntings - Visionary Living: "Rosemary Ellen Guiley is a leading expert on the paranormal and supernatural. She conducts original field investigations of haunted and mysterious sites. She has written more than 40 books – including 9 encyclopedias – and hundreds of articles in print on a wide range of paranormal, spiritual and mystical topics, and possesses an exceptional knowledge of the field. She has approximately one million copies in print.
Click here to read more about Rosemary Ellen Guiley and her Collection of Encyclopedia's and other books!

I really enjoy her Encyclopedia about Witches, Witchcraft and Wicca. It has anything and everything you could possibly almost think of! I found allot of things in it to research online for myself, and it showed me topics I didn't know of as I started my Journey into Pagan religions. I also used it for a Witchcraft report I did before I turned Pagan. (Doing that report really opened my eyes and I fell in love with Paganism then). Someone told me some of the information isn't accurate, but I believe most of it is so I would defiantly check it out if you think you might want it! It's a great book to add to any library in my opinion!

Mr. Lee CatCam

Mr. Lee CatCam

That is a link to a site where you can buy a camera for your cat! This same camera is the one used by Cooper the Cat to take the amazing photo's he takes while out on the prowl! I so want this!
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Sorry I'm so random :3 I love cats though and everyday I ask my cats where they have been! I wish I could get this camera for at least one of my cats!

Interesting Post I found on Wicca World Social

RED Signifies: Strength, health, vigor, lust, danger. Holiday: Yule Planet: Mars Day: Tuesday Astrological Sign: Scorpio

ORANGE Signifies: Encouragement, adaptability, stimulation, attraction, plenty, kindness. Holiday: Candlemas Deities: Brigid Planets: Sun, Mars, Mercury Days: Sunday, Tuesday, Wednesday Astrological Sign: Leo, Sagittarius

YELLOW Signifies: Knowledge, learning, concentration, persuasion, charm, confidence, jealousy, joy, comfort. Planet: Mercury Day: Wednesday Astrological Sign: Gemini, Leo

GREEN Signifies: Finances, fertility, luck, success energy, charity, growth rejuvenation, ambition, counteract greed and jealousy, plants kingdom including herbal healing. Planets: Venus, Mercury Days: Friday, Wednesday Holidays: Spring Equinox, Beltane Astrological Sign: Taurus

BLUE Signifies: Tranquility, understanding, patience, health, truth, devotion, sincerity, honor, loyalty, peace, wisdom, protection during sleep, astral projection. Planets: Moon, Venus, Saturn, Jupiter Days: Monday, Friday, Saturday, Thursday Astrological Sign: Libra, Sagittarius

VIOLET/PURPLE Signifies: Power, piety, sanctity, sentimentality, tension, sadness amplification of other energies, wisdom, high ideals, spiritual protection and healing, psychic ability, protective energy. Planet: Jupiter Day: Thursday Astrological Sign: Sagittarius

BLACK  Signifies: Negation without reflecting, unlocking when stuck, banishing evil or negativity. Holiday- Samhain Planet- Saturn Day - Saturday Deities- The Crone Astrological Sign: Scorpio & Capricorn WHITE Signifies: Purity, consecration, meditation, divination, exorcism, the full moon, healing, peace, spiritual strength. (May be substituted for any other color.) Planet: Moon Day: Monday Astrological Sign: Cancer GRAY Signifies: Balance, neutrality, used in erasing, canceling, neutralizing, and return to the universe without repercussion destructive energies. Planet: Moon Day: Monday Deity: Athena Astrological Sign: Virgo PINK Signifies: Healing, familial or emotional love (rather than sexual), friendship, affections, unselfish emotions, spiritual healing, banishing hatred. Gem: Rose quartz Planet: Venus Day: Friday BROWN Signifies: The Earth, grounding, trees, concentration, telepathy, spells to locate lost objects, protection of the familiars, pets, and animals. Planets: Moon (tan browns), Venus (all), Saturn (dark browns) Days: Monday, Friday, Saturday Deity: Gaia Astrological Sign: Capricorn Holiday: Mabon SILVERSignifies: Purity, the moon, treasure, values, female energy, the unconscious mind. Day: Monday Astrological Sign: Gemini Deity: Artemis and other Moon Goddesses GOLD Signifies: The sun, male energy, wealth, financial wisdom, conscious mind, attracting happiness, activity, intelligence. Planet: Sun Day: Sunday Astrological Sign: Leo Deity: Apollo and other Sun G (sorry for the weird indent couldn't fix it but heres a link to the site where I found this)

Grandma's Recovery

Today I found out my Grandma is recovery well from a surgery she needed to remove cancer cells from her cervix. She had it done on the 27th but she is already up and walking. Her strength reminds me how we can all keep our heads held high even in difficult times. Even when she just got the news her heart was already set on recovering. My Grandma is one of the strongest people I know, she is always ready to get through to the next day with an open and loving heart. I love her so much and I hope that she is able to get through this and love a happy and healthy more years.

Love you Grandma and Grandpa. :)